I wish

I wish I could tell you how I’m feeling
But the words just wont form
And I know if I tell you one thing
Everything will spill out
Then you’ll hurt as much as I do
So forgive my silence
For these thoughts are to much to bare
I want you to be happy
Not worry about those you leave behind
So once agin I will paint on a smile
And pretend its not killing me inside
Everything will be fine
Until you gaze across the room
With those eyes that see my soul
You are the only one who knows I am lying